Crashed (About Love Part Two)
The last post I had to make mention of my current situation. I'm over him, yes I am. And it's not because I've taken interest in someone new. I really am over him. I spent the last 4 months moving on. A few weeks ago I almost thought it wasn't dead (hence latching on to "It's not over" by Daughtry), but now I know for sure it is. There is no going back, no more question. I really do feel alright about it. It's not a "la la" feeling either. Yes I think about things and get a little sad, but really do know this is for the better.
So staying with the theme of using songs to express myself better, here's the other half of this new feeling and new beginning:
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"Crashed"
Well I was moving at the speed of sound.
Head-spinning, couldn't find my way around, and
Didn't know that I was going down.
Yeah, yeah.
Where I've been, well it's all a blur.
What I was looking for, I'm not sure.
Too late and didn't see it coming.
Yeah, yeah.
And then I crashed into you,
And I went up in flames.
Could've been the death of me,
But then you breathed your breath in me.
And I crashed into you,
Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can't walk away.
Somehow, I couldn't stop myself.
I just wanted to know how it felt.
Too strong, I couldn't hold on.
Yeah, yeah.
Now I'm just tryin' to make some sense
Out of how and why this happened.
Where we're heading, there's just no knowing.
Yeah, yeah.
And then I crashed into you,
And I went up in flames.
Could've been the death of me,
But then you breathed your breath in me.
And I crashed into you,
Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can't walk away.
From your face, your eyes
Are burning to me.
You saved me, you gave me
Just what I need.
Oh, just what I need.
And then I crashed into you,
And I went up in flames.
Could've been the death of me,
But then you breathed your breath in me.
And I crashed into you,
Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can't walk away.
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Honestly, I'm scared to death. Just the thought of a new relationship absolutely terrifies me. On the plus side, I think this new person is feeling the same way. Since I really don't know anything about him other than he's a friend of a friend. The best friend of my best friend's husband. In a perfect world that would be nice, right? Maybe that's what scares me.....knowing "how perfect" this would all be. Or maybe my past record with relationships (aka train wrecks). Or maybe knowing I could fall for him and then one day he'd just be gone like the rest. Who knows.
Right now I'm just very interested in him, and want to get to know him better. Oh and if you wonder what happen to the "distraction" as mentioned in previous posts.....well he's still kinda here somewhere. I haven't seen him in awhile, which is good. I've completely lost interest in him. My mom put it perfectly - he's everything I hate. He really was too. Being a fun person to hang out with when I was lonely was about all I liked about him. Totally not relationship material, and I knew from the start it wasn't going anywhere. This new one though .... oh my, who knows where that will go. Scary yes, but exciting. As per the lyrics above: "Where we're heading, there's just no knowing." So true! This song is just too perfect.
