Off in la-la land again
Funny thing happend last week. I fell in love. Completely unexpected and some rather strang circumstances, but never the less I think I've found the one. I can't find a single flaw with him, and I've fallen head over heals for him. Odd thing is he feels the same way. Or at least this is what he says. Even still I know there's so much to know about him, and so much I want to know. What he looks like for one. 0.0 Yes I said it - I don't know what he looks like. We met a few months ago playing that silly game I play. We were good friends, and loved "hang out" together within the game. Several weeks went by, I sat and chatted with him while he went though a break up (in real life, not game), and then something just changed. I can't explain how or why, but all the sudden we were saying "I love you" and meaning it. The more we get to know eachother the more we love. Still with fear holding fast, I worry about little things. Ok I worry about a lot. I want to be happy, and he makes me happy, but I fear if I get too close I'm going to get burned.
Still I know it's fun here in lala land. It's a long way to fall though. I had to laugh today while I was picking up the house. You see I have this ring, with a little charm on it. It was a heart. Well a few weeks ago I caught the ring on something and had lost the little heart. Today I found it by some chance and said "I found my heart! I thought it was gone for good...". I laughed, because it was so funny and that it related to what's going on. How easily ammused I am. :P
We will see how things go with this new special someone, and how far I can allow myself to go without becoming completely freaked out and doing something stupid like pushing a perfect relationship away.
