Love truely is a game

I've played over the events with a special someone over and over in my head trying to make sense of it all. The only thing I succeed in doing is giving myself a headache and making it even more confusing. Once in awhile I stop to ponder what happend to the girl years ago that would change men more often then filling up my gas tank in high school. Perhaps significant others where more plentiful back then, or maybe things were just a lot less serious in general. I don't think I really thought about the future too often, knowing I had years to choose my path and run with it. It's possible if I had the resources I did back then I would be the same as I once was, but who really knows.

The only thing that circles my mind now is finding that great love of a lifetime (Isn't that a song? Yeah......I like that song), and loosing myself completely in the magic. Then the familiar phrase "all good thing must come to an end" pops in my mind, and I wonder if I've already had my share of "magic" for this lifetime. How many times do we get to feel like that anyway? That we are safe, and we know in our heart this is the person we never want to spend a second away from.

Why is it our hearts and minds can change so quickly, and we get stuck in a rut? Does the magic always fade and leave us with a jaded outlook on love?

Eh, maybe it's just me and my "do or die" "run with it" personality. I suppose it's possible if I didn't think like that, I would have never felt so high as I did with those I've loved and still be sitting here wondering if true love will ever find me.

*sigh*

~Kara